Whiplash

Thursday, July 26th, 2012

Something new has appeared, exploding my carefully managed elements of change into chaos. Did I go looking for it? Did it fall in my lap? It doesn’t matter. However it got here, I have welcomed it. Now I have to tame the chaos it created; regain control of my journey down the yellow brick road – whether or not it’s the same road on which I started out.

Priorities have shifted in favor of the new. All of my other endeavors are just as important as they ever were, it’s just that this one is even more so. As long as I treat it as such, I have to believe that everything else will fall into place. I was already working to a new paradigm, and now, without warning, it has shifted – a WTF moment that has not yet ended, but keeps morphing into a different form. *whiplash*

Even so, the ‘something new’ is a blessing – and it hasn’t bothered with a disguise.  I’m reminded of the old saying, “Be careful what you wish for…”

Well, it appears that I may have gotten ‘it’.

Yellow and Curtains to Welching

Thursday, July 19th, 2012

Follow the yellow brick road! Hopefully, I’ll fare better than the travelers who took the original one to Oz. As long as I avoid the poppy fields, it’s a win. The only question is whether there will be an audience beyond the curtain.

Publishing statistics indicate that the most likely scenario is to pull back the curtain and find an empty auditorium. Audiences for fiction prefer to peek through the doors and sample the performance before taking a seat. With the thousands of available performances, the likelihood of any one attracting a packed house is small indeed – but it is possible. And I’ve committed.

Maybe I should be committed, but that’s beside the point. What I mean is that I’ve committed myself to the road that I’m on and I’m honor-bound to see it through. Of course I can always change my mind, but then I’d be a welcher. Not a good habit to get into.

All I have to do is stay on plan. I’ve already stopped allowing every shiny object to distract me, but what I didn’t expect was having to give up good stuff. There are loads of easily available, helpful and informative sources from which I know I can learn. Now, I have to limit myself to only those that take me further down the road I’ve chosen. The others will have to wait. Sigh…

Hatin’ the Shades

Thursday, July 12th, 2012
Lately, I’ve been awful at keeping promises to myself. That’s the problem with making them before I’ve given thought to a situation. This time, the promise I’ve broken is that I would stay out of the Fifty Shades of Grey debate. But – here I am talking about it.
The ‘net – especially the blogosphere – is rife with discussions of its content and style. All opinions, even those that are fiercely held, are subjective – and mine has been rendered irrelevant. Why is that? AUDIENCE
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There are already thousands who have voted with their pocketbooks, contributing to the success of the Fifty Shades series. So many people have bought the books that the numbers attracted Hollywood and traditional publishing. It would be crazy to pretend that I don’t want the same – an audience that loves my work just as much as E. L. James’ readers love Fifty Shades. But how do I attract them?
Since I’m in the midst of creating a marketing plan, I study every success, whether the author is traditionally-, independently- or self-published. I dissect their story in an effort to understand how they achieved it.
Do I think Ms. James’ path to success will work for me? Probably not. But just as reading the works of others helps me improve the craft of writing, studying the success of others helps me make choices that are more likely to result in my own success.
To fulfill my dream of attracting an audience, I have lots of studying – and writing –  to do…and as we say in N’Awlins, “Ain’t got no time for hatin’.”

Dead Ostriches in the Bayou

Thursday, July 5th, 2012

Back when IBM ruled the southern tip of San Jose, California, there was a tiny deli that had one of the best sandwiches in the universe. The sandwich was called the Avocado Undecided, and was composed of two thick slices of white bread, hand-made sun-dried tomato mayonnaise, bay shrimp and a whole sliced avocado. It was served open-faced, in a little plasti-wicker basket.

Why ‘Undecided’? It was hard to choose whether to eat it with a fork or as a sandwich. Nice problem to have. I’m thinking about it now because I have a similar – but not as delicious – problem: my decision basket is over-stuffed.

It’s my own fault – I’ve been procrastinating. Avoiding decisions that I should have made long ago. Now they overflow the basket, daring me to keep ignoring them. I’m the one who committed myself to this path. It doesn’t matter that I now find it shifting under my feet. I ought to feel right at home – it’s like navigating a bayou.

I don’t know whether making each decision will send me forward, backward, or into the quickmud. But it’s clear that I can no longer pretend to be an ostrich. (Ostriches in the bayou? Seriously? They’d be dead in seconds.)

The only way onward is to let go of doubt – and act. So here I go… Ummm… Making… a… decision… Really – I am. Starting now…

The Last TM

Thursday, June 28th, 2012
The Last TM

Bridge and distant man fade into mist, Photo Credit: Jeanne Mcright, Dreamstime.com

 

I don’t want this to happen. I can’t tell down from up; up from down. Darkness surrounds me, the weight of it pressing hard on my chest. But darkness has no weight… It’s water! Immediately, I suppress the breath I was about to take. I have to get out – now. But which way to go?

A faint glimmer eases my panic. It appears to be below me, but clutching my faith, I approach it. Fear, the weight of the water, and my desperate need to breathe inhibit me. I don’t have much time. Thankfully, as I struggle toward the lighted area, it grows wider and brighter. Suddenly my head and shoulders break the surface. I draw a ragged, painful breath. Then another, and another. I see my guiding light. It’s a lamppost on The River Walk. Slowly, I make my way toward it. At last, I cast myself onto the rocky bank beneath the promenade. Good thing I’m a strong swimmer. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have made it.

I try to rest, but noise from above disturbs me. I look up to the bridge and see that a crowd surrounds the trunk of a car that has breached the railing. It now hangs vicariously by only its rear wheels. Both front doors are open. Ray frantically screams my name, and then I see him toward the front of the crowd. Some of the people are holding him back from the edge. I remember now…

In the inside lane but driving far too fast, Ray raced to the rehearsal dinner for Lon and Gail. He hadn’t believed me when I read the directions from Gail’s TM, so I showed him my phone. He took his eyes off the road for barely a second. The car careened off the center divide, crossed the traffic lanes, hit the side of the bridge and smashed through the railing. The seatbelts saved us both. Ray undid his and quickly climbed out of the car. He reached back for me, calling for me to hurry. I unbuckled my seatbelt, crossed over the console to the driver’s seat, and grabbed his outstretched hand. But the car lurched away from him. He lost his hold and I slid back. He called for me again and I tried to cross the console again, but my foot hit something on the door and it flew open. I scrambled to stay on the seat, but couldn’t find a handhold. Ray’s hand was barely an inch too far away. Gravity won. I slid down through the door and fell into the water.

Wow. I fell a long way. Automatically, I reach into my front pocket for my phone. But of course it isn’t there. I can’t text Ray that I’m okay. He’s still pulling away from those who are holding him, trying to jump into the river after me. I have to stop him.

Suddenly among the crowd, I am still too spent to attract his attention. I fight my way to his side and touch my hand to his cheek. Gradually, he stops trying to jump over the bridge railing, and instead, turns and sinks down in front of it, his head in his hands. I sit down beside him and hug him close to me. I’ll stay with him; comfort him until he’s ready to see me. Once his mind is at ease, I can rest.

Buckets, Kleenex & Never Again (Maybe)

Thursday, June 21st, 2012

Last week, I cried so much that I couldn’t see straight. Oh wait – I couldn’t see straight because I didn’t have my glasses. Scratch that. Let’s just say I cried buckets.

Not because I had to start over with the narrative for my new story. Though with 10K words already written, having to go back to the beginning was certainly sob-worthy. I drowned myself in tears to examine and experience the emotions of sadness and anger evoked by tragic and unresolved loss.

In my new story, there is a murder. Someone was taken away too soon. Lives were changed; futures were damaged. The novel has to capture not only the events leading up to and after the murder, but also the emotions that trigger the actions causing those events. I needed to emerse myself in gut-wrenching, gone-before-I-could-do-anything pain so that I could accurately portray the thoughts and feelings of my characters.

So in spite of the promise I made myself to never watch them again and instead, love them from a distance, I revisited a few three-Kleenex-box favorite old movies that never fail to dredge up those difficult and painful emotions. Unfortunately, letting go of those feelings hasn’t been easy. I’m still suffering through the consequences of self-imposed dispair.

Enough is enough. Time to go overdose on HAPPY!!

Story Killers

Thursday, June 14th, 2012

My new work in progress (wip) is on a hit list. In the story, the heroine chases and pins down especially slippery pieces of information. I know who the assassins are – search engines. They have become so ubiquitous that the name of one of them is now the verb for using them all (“Google it on Bing.”).

Because of search engines, the missing information my heroine is spazzing over musn’t be accessible on the public web, or the deep web (sites requiring subscriptions). Since almost everything is on the internet, the information must be purposely hidden. Anything less than that won’t be believable. The last thing I want is for a reader to ask, “Why didn’t she just Google it?”, and then in exasperation, throw the book aside.

Since I hadn’t given enough thought to the plot for my new story, I have to rework the inciting incident. Also, prior knowledge and motivations of several major characters have to change. Who am I kidding? The whole narrative has to change. Luckily, I’ve only gotten about 10K words into it. On the plus side, the adjustment makes the story far stronger and is a natural source of dramatic irony.

Surprisingly, the outline will only change by the inciting incident sentence. The scene table is just an empty structure – except for scene names and characters – so it won’t change at all. Looks like I started my artifacts at the right level.

As much as I want to vent about it, starting over really isn’t that bad.

*headdesk*

*headdesk*

*headwall headwall headwall*

Excedrin. Headache #541…

Get My Pantz (Or Game?) On!

Thursday, June 7th, 2012
I started to share another rant about my characters, but Zzzz…. – boring! They’re still misbehaving, but so what? They’re revealing a number of sources of conflict and forcing dramatic irony to materialize.

After eighteen months of learning that I needed to rewrite, then learning how to rewrite and finally – actually doing it, I had forgotten the year it took to produce a first draft. To remind myself, I revisited my very first completed narrative of Sparks. It was well worth the laugh. The narrative has no resemblance to the novel – or even the finished first draft. Outlining or using a scene table for it would have been a complete waste of time.

For this second novel, I’m confident enough in the rough version of the story to have set up a preliminary scene table. Folly? Time will tell. In any event, it’s now time to just let the words flow. I promised myself I wouldn’t pantz this time, but I have to break that promise. It was a foolish one, made before I had reminded myself of what it takes to write a first draft – time in the chair. Lots of it, while I suffer through the fits and starts of the story revealing itself.

I now know that my stories require a balance of pantzing – mostly during the first draft, and plotting – mostly during rewriting. While I have to accept that the journey for every book will be different, I still must use what worked for me in the past. I’ve been so anxious to get to the rewriting stage that I was short-changing myself on the material I’ll need when I get there. Bad idea.

Now that I’ve figured that out and gathered up all of my snippets, my full first pantzed narrative is – finally – under way. Game on!

To Market, To Market – I Need a Great Plan!

Thursday, May 17th, 2012

Funny that sometimes one has to slide down the rabbit hole in order to see the light. Or in my case, jump off a cliff and grow wings on the way down. So much more hair-raising that way. I love that quote! It’s so ‘me’. And so far, I’ve still got all nine of my lives left.

The plan I need? Of course – a marketing plan. Though it’s been mentioned in articles I’ve read and in webinars I’ve attended, the truth of it didn’t sink in until I wanted to publish badly enough. Yep, I had to stand up in AA (Authors Anonymous) and admit the truth “I am an author and I want people to read – and love – my book.” Deep breath. Then I realized what I had just said. I want people to buy my book. In this maddeningly tight economy. I want lots of people to part with their money, every dollar of which is dear, to buy Sparks.

Then I went to the flip-side and asked myself, “What would I do if my choices were to sell Sparks or starve?” Imagination kicked in. I became the heroine in my own tale and the answer was clear. If the risk is all mine and the funding is all mine, then I need a detailed starve-or-deliver-the-goods marketing plan – like the ones I do all the time for software projects on which I consult. Duh…

And get this – it matters not a whit whether I will be traditionally-, independently- or self-published. I still need a marketing plan. Yes, the big publishing houses and independent presses have established distribution and marketing channels. So what’s the deal? If I want access to those channels, I have to be able to tell prospective agents and/or publishers what Sparks is about and who will want to read it. No, I don’t mean genre and what groups of readers on the reading sites – though that is a good start. I’ve got to know exactly what my story is (contemporary fiction with a side of suspense) and exactly who is going to read it (the woman in 12B who’s eating cold takeout while studying for her LSAT – well, lots of women like her and men who love women like her).

The ability to identify and connect with the right readers is crucial if one is self-publishing because there is nobody else to share the preparation and marketing costs. Even for the traditional or indie route it’s best to have a detailed marketing plan – especially for debut authors. Keep the day job, peeps. Reserve the advance for marketing.

Spring Cleaning

Thursday, May 10th, 2012
I’ve let myself go – neglected my platform. Yes, I’ve been busy, but that’s not an excuse. It needs sprucing, pruning, polishing, and I’m taking time out right now get it all bright and shiny again.First up – my authors lists. I apologize in advance to those of you who follow them, but ‘authors-books, stories‘ and ‘authors books stories too‘ are a hodge-podge and it’s time to bring order. I’ve already begun TradPubbedAuthors, IndiePubbedAuthors, SelfPubbedAuthors and SoonToBePubbedAuthors. I’ll be moving authors into those so please follow them instead. Also please let me know if you think I’ve put you in the wrong list. WritingBiz and ReadingBiz will stay as they are because they feed my papers. I’ve also built a paper around my new authors lists – take a look!

I’ve already updated my social widget to include Pinterest and my papers. Soon, I’ll add forums that I frequent. Speaking of the forums, I haven’t yet set up my profile and visited some of them. Now that I’m moving solidly on to book #2, I’ll have time for a while to hang out with other authors. Joy!

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